Tired . . .

Exhaustion may be a better word to describe how I feel right now. Emotionally, physically and mentally drained. Its the weekend before another set of quizzes and I feel so unprepared. Somehow I think going to some review sessions and seeing how unprepared I was relative to the material I was supposed to know and be reviewing and compared to my classmates, I definitely feel a small sense of inadequacy and anxiety. That coupled with feeling really tired has really got me bummin.

Its less than a month until finals . . .
Right now, all I want to do is to isolate myself and lick my wounds and study study study.

Buuuuuuu

Just failed my first quiz. Its a crappy feeling and pretty scary because I really felt like I knew the material fairly well although its obvious I did not. I really need to spend more time on this quiz next round.

Man, I really gotta get back my groove like I did on the first two quizzes, more independent studying with Deo, less socializing and screwing around.

That said, I will probably go to NYC this weekend. We get Friday off and I will be done with my bschool applications.

Need to really clear my head, be in a big city, watch a movie in a real theater, eat ethnic foods, maybe go to a club. Based on my quiz scores, looks like I will be bringing some books too though. hahaha

Man, this life balance in med school stuff is really no joke.

Look mom, I’m gonna be a doctor!

Pictures from my white coat ceremony this past weekend where my classmates got to sit through talks about what great doctors we are going to be, hear about the huge need for more compassionate doctors, yada yada, it was nice to take lots of pictures with family and friends

Trying the white coat on for the first time, the sleeves were a little big . . . :)

Me with the Dean, nice smile eh?

Me and my classmates! Whoo hoo, we’re gonna be doctors!

. . . might as well enjoy it

Wow, the weekend is almost over and I’ve been studying non stop. It makes life simple: study, sleep, study, sleep, occasionally eat and sometimes work out.

As Deo tells me, in med school, since I will study harder than I have ever studied, become sleep deprived and go into lots of debt . . . I might as well enjoy it.

And I have been. The people are great, the material is interesting and the workload, although at times overwhelming is really interesting. I have started seeing patients and taking histories and doing physicals in clinic. Its been really fun and I really feel this is the right path for me. That ultimately, is the best reward I could have.

So for all the hard work, I am enjoying it.